With the goal of debunking society’s artificial standards for normalcy and beauty in female genitalia, Show Off Books released its first book, I’ll Show You Mine. A unique resource tool, ISYM contains 60 women shown in life-size full color photographs coupled with in-their-own-words stories of their experiences of sexuality in our society
My Name is Devi and this is my Yoni.
Until very recently, my primary relationship with my Yoni was one of subtle shame, though if you had asked me at the time, I would have described the feeling as “shy”. Shy, and slightly embarrassed, and in absolute fear about communicating verbally to a man about which sensations were pleasurable, and which were not. I would not have described myself as sexually repressed in any way, quite the opposite in fact. I considered myself very sexually open and expressive, and probably was by conventional standards. During the 2-7 minutes of sexual intercourse that is considered “normal” in conventional western sexuality, I remember experiencing pain in some areas of my yoni and thinking that was natural. I remember that just about the time I started to really FEEL pleasure during sex, the man would ejaculate, and it would be over. I remember having this internal sense of being rushed during oral sex, like I needed to hurry up and come as quickly as I could, because lord knows he won’t be down there for long! And gosh, if on the rare occasion he was, I felt embarrassed and uncomfortable, and had a sense of doing him a great disservice by taking so long….just fuck me now o.k?
I had my first Vulva massage at the age of 33. It lasted 5 hours and consisted entirely of my Tantric Healer massaging, exploring and pleasuring my vulva and vagina, while I verbally communicated to him about pressure, sensation, pleasure and pain. I discovered that numb and painful places inside the yoni are NOT “natural” and are indicative of subtle traumas held in the sexual organs. I discovered that every one of those physical pains had an emotional or psychological pain to go with it, and that with breath, touch, and awareness, those pains could be healed. I sat naked and upright in a chair, with the lights on and my legs spread wide open, and nowhere to hide for 5 hours. I discovered how difficult it was to stay present, and receive this touch that had no demand for a particular response. I saw for the first time how the subconscious sense of shame that I had about my yoni kept me from being able to express my pleasure openly, and completely inhibited my ability to give my partners guidance about what pressure, sensation, or stroke I would enjoy even more. Over the last 3 years I have discovered that my Yoni can have at least 5 different kinds of orgasms, and I can distinguish between an orgasm that occurs at the front, middle, or back of my g-spot. I regularly have anywhere from 10-15 orgasms in a row as easily as breathing, and I ejaculate regularly. My Yoni is now a gateway to mind-melting experiences of orgasmic pleasure and bliss, and I can confidently say that this is the potential of every Yoni on the planet.
My name is Devi and I am so honored and grateful that this is my Yoni.